Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 11:02 PM

dilemma

Why am I finding a hard time in my 'new' school? I really find it difficult in complying with my academics.

Is it the demand of the school? I know, they prioritize those 'brainy' in their school. They are bestowing a lot of pressure on everyone's back because they want us to be the best we could possibly be.

Is it just an adjustment on the 'new' chapter of my life? Well, I hope that eveyone's underwent this 'adjustment.' I'm just making sure that I 'm normal.

Is it just that my efforts aren't enough? I admit, I do cram and all that. I review my notes but why can't I get a perfect score?

Am I being too comfortable? I know, I am in a new environment. I've been in a private school (montessori) for 14 years and the way teachers teach wasn't the same as my new professors.

Am I not aware? Maybe yes, may be not. I'm aware due to the stories I heard from other college student who were ahead of me but it may be a narrower range than the range I must be aware of.

Am I being too pessimistic? Way back in highschool, I'm very optimistic. I'm the one who gives strength to my friends in times of problems but how am I now?


So much of my dilemmas..

Okay, we had our first quizzes. Inspite of passing, I got lower than the grade I must be able to earn. I think I'm just being prone to adjustments in every subject.

I need stability.

Learn from your mistakes and from other's mistake but what if I'm not aware that I'm living with the mistakes without learning? I better fight the unwanted thoughts! I'm the one who can give first aid to myself. I hope this will be a good fight.